Look into me

Grrrrr makes me so mad that the No, I'm Not a Human fandom like...exists. I really loved the game on release and I loved the demo as well, but seeing the people who are so incapable of understand a story for the sake of writing smut and drawing cutesy fun ship art really just bogs down anything to me. Shipping is totally whatever, but I think (not to be the fun police) that ships should have like?? reason?? to exist?? Wild concept, I know. But the people of the internet disagree it seems. It's like when Animal Crossing: New Horizons came out and people were obsessing over the same like five villagers all the time and it turned from a game about making friends and feeling at home to a game about selling your friends because they are aesthetically pleasing. Like do the foreigner and coat guy have literally anything in common?? Any interaction? Any reason to be friends other than the fact that they are the most popular characters?
And the thing is that it's so pointless to be so obsessed with something so stupid. I absolutely had my favorite characters and I loved them dearly. You could even say I did the same thing with the Widow, who's appearance I loved excessively even before I had played the demo. You see the difference is that I like her character for what it is and not what I want it to be. People WANT the foreigner to be fun and silly but quite honestly, he has zero personality. Not to say I don't like him, because his concept is cool and I did enjoy experiencing him for the first time in the game. However, as somebody who has played the game and interacted with him fully, I can tell you that there is no substance to him. That's because, just in case you weren't aware, "Wireface" enjoyers, HE DOESN'T FUCKING SAY ANYTHING !! Every single dialogue boils down to "What the fuck are you saying?" and little else. He made me laugh because there are times where he tries to talk to you, but doesn't do well, like in his last dialogue where he says "BUH BHYE!" That's really it, though. He has a friend that gave him an earring. Can't forget that.
Anyways, exercise in hatred. I just can't enjoy the community because it seems we played completely different games.
-11/04/2025

Oops forgot I had a website again.
Only natural I think. I text my group chat very often when I have something to share, probably much to the annoyance of my friends. I usually don't get a response either. So, I've been meaning to find some way to get thoughts out without sending random messages and so I don't send repetitive messages to people (because cycle cycle cycle). Anway,
I want to make stuff (like most people). I want to make videos and write stuff and make art, but I hate sharing stuff. Internet is a scary place. Can't put videos anywhere else though. I have photos. I need to get them developed, and then I'll probably share them here. I miss having Adobe products, but fuck Adobe. I need some way to edit photos and videos without those products. Even if it wasn't so expensive, that AI bullshit makes me want to avoid it even more.
I've also been thinking about sharing my website more broadly with people. Like people I know? Am I interesting enough to warrant that? I also need to clean my website up more. I want something more visually interesting but haven't had much time to learn HTML. Maybe today. I have homework to do but my work work is done and I still have another two hours or so left at work.
-11/03/2025

Guess who finally updated their websiteeeeee...... me.
I just recently got a new job (previous blog post) and while I'm training, there is a bit of time where my trainer is finishing her work, and so I have a bit of free time that I used to not have. I used a bit of this time to do homework, but my semester just ended and hasn't started again just yet (tomorrow I think?). Anyways, since I have literally nothing else to do, it seemed the most reasonable. Hi! I think there are many many changes left to make, I'd like to add a lot of pictures and buttons and music and the such. I also keep making pages that I don't full go through because I don't know what to write at that moment (stenography page my behated...) so I need to get on that.
Update (same day): Just got my schedule for tomorrow's trials. Looking busy..... @_@ Here's hoping I have time to do my homework.
- 9/30/2025

For school, our speed is determined in three catagories. Literary, being general, things like speeches, readings from books, congretional, etc. QA/Testimony, which is almost exclusively legal depositions, and Jury Charge, which is when the judge addresses the jury at the beginning or end of a trial.
For the last few months, I have been in a pit. I didn't care much about class, it was just a chore, I hated doing it. That was all until I stepped foot in a courtroom for the second ever time in my life (the first time being jury duty). I was shadowing a courtroom clerk, a position I had been offered at work, and so I sat next to her while she worked and I just watched. It was the most exciting moment since I moved about eight months ago. I just really picked up after that.
So, I'm hopefully going to become a courtroom clerk. Sure, it's not reporter, but I yearn for the courtroom. The inspiration I felt in that moment, it has impacted me for weeks. Now, I have just passed my 140 WPM tests for Literary and JC, and I have one more for QA that I need to take right now. If I pass that? Oh baby.
But fuck, I shout! I am so fucking scared! Reaching 160 means I am an advanced student. I took all my academic classes up to this point, but now I am entering my advanced academic (recently I have had only my speed building class). I have to take a couple classes that are actually about court reporting. I have to do an externship, I have to have like 50 hours or something !! What the hell am I going to do ?! How do I schedule an externship with a full time job? The good news, at least, is there are court reporters in the building, right?
In the end, I'll figure it out. I am beyond excited to move forward after feeling stuck and hopeless.
- 8/27/2025
p.s. I really need to fix the website. I know it's ugly as hell